Some of you already know about my fear of heights as I shared it here before. 10 years ago I hiked to Icehouse Saddle for the first time. During the switchbacks, I came to a narrow trail on a steep slope that was light shade of grey. There were no trees or bushes. Not even a pine needle to add a drop of color. It was just a sea of grey small stones. I couldn’t quickly tell where the edge was.
A fear of heights is called acrophobia. Acrophobia can range from fear when on the top floor of a tall building, to fear of standing on a chair. People with acrophobia feel a sense of panic when they’re at a certain height and often become unable to trust their sense of balance.
A panic kicked in and the stress triggered a vertigo. The world started to spin and I had a panic attack right in the middle of the trail. There was no one around me at that moment. I managed to lower myself down by leaning on to one side (the right side thankfully). Needless to say, I was traumatized by the event and I never went back to Icehouse Canyon. In recent years, I had two separate panic attacks on the trail. Xena frantically jumped on me until I lost my balance and had to sit on the ground. She then draped herself over me and didn’t let me move. She didn’t lift herself off me until I felt calm. After the second incident, I knew I had to get over this fear. It started to take over me. I’ve been working toward it since then via desensitization and just recently I noticed that I may have made some progress. I was ready to test it out. I couldn’t think of a better place to do it than the place where it all began. So back to Icehouse Canyon we went. This time I conquered the mountain and my fears. It took me 10 years but I did it. I felt the weight lifted from my shoulders and chest when I reached the saddle. After that, anything was possible. All thanks to Xena. ❤
12 comments on “Small Victory, Big Milestone”
Congrats on conquering your fear with your best friend nearby, and for the wonderful picture from Cucamonga Peak. I didn’t have the courage to get out onto that outcrop; maybe next time.
Thank you Robert! I was nervous but it was doable whereas Xena refused to join me on the rock. Haha.
Good Job on getting over your fear Jamie!👍🏻 Nothing is going to stop you now. Keep up the great work on the blog.
Thanks so much, Arlene!
Congrats to you and Xena in conquering your fear. Together you triumphed!
Thank you, Mike. Couldn’t do it without her. 💟
Congrats on conquering the fear! I know that it’s not easy but it’s always so much more rewarding when you take that first step yourself…:)
Thanks Sha. Definitely not easy…took me 10 years! 😅 But I am so glad I made a big progress during that time. Yes, it was an empowering experience. 💪💟
Haha, thanks girl!
Wow, not me. Never, lol. I have issues driving down steep mountain roads that have rails. I find God close at those moments. My wife will be driving when words like. “Jesus… ” and “Oh God..” Start pouring from my mouth. I have to pray before my impending doom! lol
I don’t like those drives either! I drive like an old lady and I don’t feel shame. lol. Safety first always!! Those turnouts for the slow cars are my friends. 🙂